Today I woke up not wanting to do anything, to just be sad and play my games all day. I forced myself to do the washing and tidy up, then i decided to make rose hip syrup from the 'fruit' that i picked a couple days ago. I froze it to mimic first frost and it turned out pretty all right. I feel like a rose hip - still pretty on the outside but looking a bit haggard if you stare at me for two long. my inside is filled with the irritating hairs of my mind. But I still have seeds, a part of me has died but I can grow again, hopefully into something a lot more beautiful than I am now.
I'm going to take a spoonful a day in my sorrel and ginger tea. Its the small things that make you happy. I'm trying to move from life is shit and sometimes theres not shit parts, to life is great but sometimes there are shit parts. I never understood the glass half empty analogy because you can always just go and refill it. I dont know.
Anyway, in my rosehip syrup I use 2:1.5 rosehip water to sugar. I add a splash of lemon juice to make it a little tarter. I think some people use oranges but I would rather attempt than eat marmalade!!
Tomorrow I have my date with jo and my guitar lesson. I'm going to have a calendula and chamomile bath (the byproduct of infusing them with oil) then have some chamomile tea and chamomile myself to bed!